July 13, 2011
How will I stay in touch with Raka after she leaves for college? Our connection is strong today. Though, when we are apart, we don’t connect very often. An occasional brief text message or phone call is all we usually exchange, and those occasions are only when she shares something amazing that she has done. The good thing is our time apart is normally followed by time together where I cook her favorite meal and we enjoy dinner together. There are also times when she cooks for me – I truly cherish those meals.
Other times we both sit in our designated areas in the living room, she in the futon and me on the couch, and we watch an episode of the Big Bang Theory or Two and a Half Men on DVR. (Although we recently had to drop Two and Half Men as it got more sexually explicit and I simply could not handle it.) We are quiet, but we can laugh and watch together. Even loading or emptying the dishwasher becomes great when we can do it together.
Come September, the connections we share with the occasional messages will be sparse.
On one hand, I am excited about her going to NYU and starting her journey as a new adult. On the other hand, I have to admit I am struggling as I think about how to continue our strong connection from a distance.
It feels like it was just yesterday that I was at her very first graduation at montessori. It also feels like it was just earlier in the day when I attended her middle school graduation. Time flew fast and every moment was a blast. Even though I can try to put on a brave face and say I will not miss her, it is simply not true. I will truly miss my baby girl who has become my dear friend.
I am also sure that the connection that we share will evolve into something even sweeter so that I can cheer her on from a distance. For those of you who read the blog, do not worry. I will continue to find things to celebrate in my baby girl’s life and keep writing with the pride and love that only a die-hard fan can feel.